I have bowed my head down in churches and temples. I’ve prayed, chanted, and meditated. I’ve studied The Bible, The Upanishads, and a lot of Shakespeare. I’ve travelled to the foothills of the Himalayas where the Beatles meditated with the Maharishi Yogi. I’ve offered flower petals to the sacred River Ganges. And there were years when I abstained from eating anything that had a face on it.
I’ve always been deeply passionate about self-realization. It’s a BIG double- barreled word isn’t it? But wanting to know my purpose, understanding the big picture of why I’m here, and connecting with the fullness of who I really am, is no small thing.
But never would I have thought that learning to become an entrepreneur would be the biggest catalyst for my self-realization. Let me explain…
I happen to be a great coach—I’ve been trained by the best in the business, and my clients tell me how I help transform their lives. Coaching is my right work.
But, being good at what I do is not enough. You see, I’ve also had to learn how to become an entrepreneur—how to let the world know what it is I have to offer.
To be honest, this entrepreneurial journey hasn’t been easy for me. In fact, I’ve had some pretty dark days where I’ve thought about closing-up shop, and where the idea of a regular job with a regular paycheck begin to look like heaven. There have been days where I would
have given anything to get this entrepreneurial monkey off of my back.
But my work as a coach keeps calling me back…keeps reminding me to stay the course. I was born to coach. This is my life’s work.
So what has all of this got to do with self-realization? Well, almost everything, because as I stumble along this path…
I’m discovering what I’m really made of.
You see, when I put on my entrepreneurial cap, I can feel myself being pushed into excellence. I have had to move into unfamiliar territory. I’m discovering a new voice that has power. I’m unleashing my creative force. I’m getting clear about what I want to tell
the world, and what I stand for.
And best of all, I’ve never been so acutely aware of my weaknesses and fears. I notice myself wanting to step back and play small. I’m aware of the inertia, and the tendency to think that I’ll never get to where I want to be. But most of the time…
I step out of the ordinary and into the extraordinary. I get comfortable with being uncomfortable. And it feels like I’m going in the right direction.
I’ve always thought thatself-realization was about living the life of an aesthetic, giving up worldly goods, and learning how to do a perfect down-dog pose. But what I’ve discovered is that it’s really about how I am BEING when a life situation brings up all of my crap.
So, what is it that brings up your crap?
Is it that you’re living with someone who is all wrong for you? Are you working at a job that under-utilizes and undermines who you are? Or are you spending money when you don’t have money to spend?
Whatever your circumstance may be, have you noticed that when you’re in the middle of it, there is also a window of opportunity in that moment to evaluate, change, step up, make a decision, demand more for yourself, speak up, and get honest?
And have you also noticed that you have a window of opportunity to back down, shrivel-away, tolerate, wimp-out, play safe, dishonor yourself, and keep yourself in the same rut.
This is YOU in the act of self-realization.
Stepping into our greatness won’t happen all at once. Much like dancing the tango, you’ll take two steps forward and then one step back. You’ll wallow in the drama of it all, and then you’ll have moments when you’re ready to do what it takes if it could promise you the
happiness you long for. But then you’ll slip back yet again to life as usual.
But that’s OK.
It’s OK that I’m not where I want to be with my business. It’s OK that I’m still testing the waters before I move into new territory. I am where I am, I’m on my way. I’m noticing. I’m realizing my self.